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I am back
13:31 Mar 29 2017
Times Read: 282

Yes, I decided to return. I am here to be with the remaining friends I have here. I DO NOT want any drama, so keep me the hell out of your nonsense and stay the hell away from me. I have enough problems without anyone elses garbage.

19:19 Mar 18 2017
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Mary is NEVER returning to VR. The scum that inhabits this site went too far which is BULLSHIT which is why I want to leave. The people who did this know who they are and have no fucking shame. They don't give a fuck who they hurt. This time they have won, I hope they enjoy their victory. It's a very hollow one. Now they don't have Mary to blame and call a bully. Now they will be exposed for the scum that they are. I hope they rot in hell for what they have done.

Staying a little while longer.
11:15 Mar 18 2017
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I will be staying a little while longer to help with the transition occurring in the Royal Blood. Mary wants me to be second in command for now. She had wanted me to be CM, but I would not be a sire yet without her mark.

Upset.
15:36 Mar 17 2017
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I am very upset. Thanks to the actions of others on Vampire Rave, I have lost a close friend. Their actions made her hate Vampire Rave and everyone on it, including me. This is a heavy loss for me because she was my rock. Just going into her cam and just being there could sometimes ease the depression I was feeling. She would get my head straight when I was losing it. But now she is gone. I understand, she has to protect her and her family from a bunch of childish assholes who just cant stop messing with her. This is a very bad day for me. I will be mourning the loss of her friendship. She made life a little more bearable. This is why I am leaving this site. Its filled with childish assholes. There may be a few decent people here, but the bad is outweighing the good. The rotten apples have ruined everything and you people know who you are. Fuck every one of you.

72 Hour notice.
03:57 Mar 17 2017
Times Read: 669

This profile, along with all my others will be deleted in 72 hours.

Definitley time to leave.
02:51 Mar 17 2017
Times Read: 694

Considering the crap that goes on in this site. I think its time to pull the plug. Not sure when I am doing it. But the time is near.

Hopeless
04:33 Mar 16 2017
Times Read: 750

Really depressed, dysphoric and feeling hopeless. I have a feeling that despite my best efforts in going to school and getting a degree, I will be unemployable. NO ONE is going to hire a pre op trans female. NO ONE. How the hell would I even list my gender on a job application? If I say male, then I have outed myself as being trans. If I say I am female and they find out I still have a penis or find out I am trans, I will be either denied the job or fired for lying on my job application. The bottom line is, I have to have SRS before I can even THINK of getting a job. Problem is, I cant get SRS until I get the weight off. If I cant do that, I am SCREWED. I will wind up staying on disability and the way things are going in this country, thats going to disappear too. So I will eventually have no income and when mom passes, that money will only last so long. Then what? I wind up homeless and on the streets as a pre op trans female which is the WORST thing to be living on the streets. Why did I have be born trans? Why couldnt I be born a cis female??

Thinking of leaving VR for awhile.
00:14 Mar 15 2017
Times Read: 816

Thats right. I think I have overstayed my welcome. 99% of people are sick of me and a few even hate me. I wish I could just totally disappear but I cant. That said, I think it may be time to step back for awhile and not be a burden. I am sure most people will cheer.

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10:02 Mar 13 2017
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Enjoy

Feeling better.
10:00 Mar 10 2017
Times Read: 861

Well, here is the online version of my final judgement to change my name legally to Elena Marie Durant. Its also nice the judge used female pronouns for this as I am sure he didnt have to. I was depressed before, but this has brightened my day quite a bit. Still hoping to get a hard copy of this later, but that is going too depend on the weather as old man winter has decided to rear his ugly head around here again. Looking at snow today and then another snow event, possibly a Nor'Easter that may dump a foot of snow on us next week. Geez, we have an easy winter and now its going to suck in MARCH????? WTFO????

One more step.....
04:24 Mar 09 2017
Times Read: 897

Called the newspaper today and they will be publishing my final judgement notice on my name change. This is done so that if there are any creditors or authorities looking for me, they know what I am doing. I will get an affidavit soon after the notice is published which will be on Friday. All of this costs 77 dollars. Then on April 7, I go back to the courthouse, get my papers and begin the process of changing my identity. First Social Security, then the DMV, then the banks and moms lawyer. Once I get my new medicare card, I will go to the clinic and get the records changed there which SHOULD change the records at the hospital as well. I certainly have my work cut out for me, LOL.

Name change
19:34 Mar 07 2017
Times Read: 927

Ok. Here is a little journal about my name change. I hope this can help others. Keep in mind I did this in New jersey so the laws of your state may differ.



I started this all out by going to this website http://www.judiciary.state.nj.us/prose/10551_namechg_adult.pdf

This contains all of the forms needed to change your name in the state of New Jersey. I filled out forms A, B, C, E and F. I didnt fill out form D because I dont have any pending court cases in New Jersey. Form E is the write up for the paper. You mail in forms A, B, C and F. You need to send a self addressed stamped envelope so you can get the forms back. Make copies of ALL forms before sending them out. The court will return forms A&B these will have the docket number and court date. They should also have the room number but they never gave that to me. You have to fax a copy of form B to the paper that the court tells you to print it in. They will give you an affidavit that you must present to the judge on your court date.



I called the day before to see if any accommodations could be made for me as I cant walk very far. They told me that there werent any. Also, check your papers, if they dont give you a room number where you should be, call them so you know where you are going. I didnt and it almost ended in disaster.



Court day was an early one for me as it takes about two hours to get ready. The plan was simple. My mothers aide drops me off at the Court Street entrance, she parks, and I find out where I got to be. Well, I climb the steps all the way up to the door and find that the entrance is closed. I wound up having to walk ALL the way around the courthouse to the back to enter. By the time I got there, I thought I was going to die. I had to sit for at least 10-15 minutes until I was feeling able to walk again. In the mean time the Bergen County Sheriff's deputy was trying to find out where I needed to be and wait until there werent so many people coming into the building. This entrance was where all the jurors were instructed to come in. Finally I got escorted via a back way that only Sheriff deputies were supposed to use to where I needed to be. By this time I was already beat. I sat down. The judge wasnt even in the court room yet. I signed in and waited. The judge came in, swore me in He asked me what my name was, how long I lived in the county and where I was born. Then asked if I was changing my name to evade creditors, I said no. Then He asked me if I was trying to evade any law enforcement, I said no. He said the name change was granted and that it would be valid in 30 days. So, on April 7, I will call to make sure my papers are ready. They CAN take up to 45 days if they are backed up. If the papers are ready, I will have my aide drop me off that the Hudson Street Entrance as the room I have to go to, Room 115 is like right inside the door. I will run in, get my official copy and five certified copies and the get right on out. The Bergen County courthouse is a mess right now. They are moving everyone all around. Entrances are closed. New ones being created and no one seems to know how to get around. The Bergen County Courthouse is not one of my favorite places. So, if everything goes right, on April 7, I will be legally Elena Marie Durant. I am counting the days. I cant wait to go and get my legal documents changed. I also cant wait to get my medical records changed as well. Then hopefully the dead naming and misgendering will stop. I hope this helps some of you, even if it gives you the courage to change your name as I have.



Elena.

OMG!!
10:07 Mar 07 2017
Times Read: 941

Today is the day!!! I go to court for my name change. I am SOOO nervous right now. I have a ton of butterflies in my stomach. I hope everything goes smoothly and all goes well.

Nervous.
10:20 Mar 06 2017
Times Read: 962

Getting nervous. Tomorrow is my court date. I have to call the court to see if there is any arrangement that can be made as far as parking as the walk from the garage to the main courthouse is VERY long. I am also going to give myself plenty of time tomorrow. The garage opens at 7 and the courthouse at 8. I plan to get to the garage at 7 so I can take the whole hour to get where I need to go. Also got to get all my documentation together, my birth certificate, SS card and all the forms from the court. I hope this all goes smoothly.

Stressed.
18:07 Mar 02 2017
Times Read: 988

I have been depressed for the past few days and now I cannot log into my online college courses because THEIR system is down. How the hell am I supposed to do my readings and do my assignments??? All of this is due on SUNDAY, no excuses. My stress level is through the roof. I am about to pull my hair out. Its bad enough that psychology is wickedly hard, but it has NOTHING to do with my major!! Now this crap??? I just want this week over, hell I want the next 8 weeks to be over.